Love.. Love.. Love..

Valentine's day was in every corner last Tuesday, everyone was in love in that day... hoarding of flowers and chocolates, have a dinner reservation and ... kakaingit! sana ako rin. Halos lahat ata ng girls pinkish ang cheek. Ang hahaba ng hair!!

Well, do I sound bitter?.. d naman d ba hehehehe!! for me, valentine's day is just like an ordinary day. Yeah, we celebrate thru text and calls for over 11 years. Ganun cguro sabi nga ni  M... bayan muna please. Minsan wla ng kilig factor kaya nakakainggit cla... savor the moment guys!

M greeted me thru text exactly 12mn ( kitams!) ugali nya na mag greet ng 12mn in our birthdays, anniversaries and valentine's day and I find it so cute and appreciate the effort but no expectation or whatsover. Since busy ang lolo sa work.  So sleep na drama ng lola nyo and K  tapos na valentine wla ng flower vendor sa kalsada and malamang pauwi na mga nag date when my cel ring. He was outside the gate.. umuwi!! but without fancy flowers instead isang balot na white rabbit (yung  kinakain ang balat), OTAP and gutom na tummy. So niyaya nya kong kumain sa labas but since 10:30 pm san pa kya pedeng mag dinner. We decided  to look for some fastfood na open pa and Thanks God  ang KFC 24 hours thou ang haba ng pila mukhang d ako nag iisang humahabol sa valentine's treat. M look at me kc halos lahat ng tao may hawak na flowers, balloons and chocs. I know na guilty sya kc it's our chance to celebrate Valentine together. I pat him on his back and biniro ko sya " lam ko gusto mo kong ibili kaso wla na khit plastic na flowers ubos na next time ka na lang bumawi honey" We take out our orders and feast in our home with K.

M is not a romantic type of person big effort ang gumawa ng letters for him kya super bilang ang love letters nya. But yung effort na umuwi sya to think na 24 hrs syang gising no breakfast and lunch and the tight sched.... super appreciate! for me love is in the air.

Love you so much sir! pasok pa rin tyo sa bilang ng nag celebrate ng Valentine's day!!

Unplanned Date

The Sandys attended a birthdy party last saturday in Shakey's Marcos Hway. 2 of my college closest friend were there with their respective family. We didnt chat that long our grown up kids wanted to go somewhere else. We supposed to buy some cologne in Etude House boutique in SM Masinag, my feeling korean daughter wanted to buy a doll shape cologne just like in the Korean Mag. But the parking area are all full so I suggest to dine at Niagra Hills in Antipolo to show K where her Dad and Mom usually go for a date before.

  See! I fall in love with M all over again because of this view.

 K was really amazed in the view. She keep on asking her dad where are those light came from. She's just like me before when M and I dined here. Our daddy patiently guiding my daughter to all her question.While they're busy I ordered my favorite Pork Sisig, coffee and juice for us. I like the Pork sisig in Niagra Hiils the sweet,salty spicy and with a raw egg on the top sisig is a divine! or just being bias since this is the place where I tasted my first love affair with Sisig and never stop since then.... Yan na ata pamantayan ko sa Sisig. Even K loves it and ordered some rice hehehehe!! The scenery and food keep us more closer as a family. I love the feeling!!

Late Bloomer and Late Post

So excited... god is really good! officially enrolled now in Baking and Pastry class. I'll post my first recipe... promise!!! Thank you lord for all the blessings!

Korean Hype Me

So the Koreanovela fever is now attacking me... I'm done watching Baker King, My GF is a Gumiho(fox) and Playful Kiss with my 8 yrs old daughter K. She's the one who really hooked up with these cute God's creature. I just wondering why the Korean can make a telenovelas that really get your attention and touched your heart and why do I find our own telenovenas boring. I love our actors but maybe it is in the story. The longer and complicated the stories, they more look boring and dull. But make it shorter the stories, the audience literally stop breathing in every scene; they really hold their breath and affected.
Right now, I am looking forward for more Korean Telenovelas marathon with K!!! Aja!

Aha! a sweet me?

hubby complained that I'm not longer a malambing to him. Still feel guilty as charged I dont know how to make up with him. Honestly, we are really liked a newlywed tho got married last 2006 and been together for almost 11 years now but still.... hay! M work away from the family most of the time plus the fact that I worked abroad also... the should be intimacy of being hubby and wifey are really less even though we tried to keep in touch and constantly updating ourselves no amount of talks the physical presences of each other d ata totoo ang "absence makes the heart founder". But dont get me wrong I LOVE MY M! he's my world and air. Maybe just need to pay attention more to him.
So to get a fresh start we celebrate Father' day at Golden Leaf Spa and truly enjoyed every seconds of soothing massage and the amenities such as Sauna and Steam bath, Jacuzzi and the snacks. We do planned to dine at Hapchan we like the noodles and dumplings but since we left the Spa sooo late (11pm) we end up at Vivian Tapsihan at Bulalohan along Tuazon Ave. We ordered Tapsilog, Sizzling Sisig and plain rice. No extra special in their food it's a so-so food masarap pa luto ni nanay Norma ( M's grandmother who owned a resto in Olongapo City.)We got up the next day around 10am! as in the massage gave us a good night sleep then.
I prepared M fried egg, hotdog and instant pancit canton for breakfast since we're late for pandesal. The owner even commented to M as "sir, tanghali na po wla ng nagbebenta ng pandesal".
M's tampo truly amazed me all the time. Naaalala ko na hey! I have a life and partner to enjoy for d puro stress and work lang.
M,
I know masama na loob mo but just to understand your wife. Still adjusting for so many things. I wanted to learn more from K, to our new project, to myself as an official bum and to you. From a high earner and independent person to nothing but a simple plain housewife. I thought it is simple as the word "plain" housewife but now the poor me sink in in my mind. Im a strong person I know in time I overcome my building up insecurities and fears and you'll see the old fighter in me. I love you so much! I truly do.

Bouncing Back

After the depressing miscarriage last February...Im back with confidence. I started my 6 doors apartment project last May 4. The first few weeks was really a financial draining phased. It's good that I tracking down all my expenses down to last centavo so I would be able to see the cost of my project and if it is still in my budget. I got 12 men to work for me I personally supervise the project tho, doesn't have educational background regarding construction only the knowledge and skills I learned from my previous job. Good to know that still I am a sales and marketing person... got a good deal in all construction materials I literally walked from Mayamot to Antipolo area just to canvass and check the durability of each materials. I love the new experience that keeps me busy like a bee for now..

Hectic Me

Been busy for the past 2 months complying with apartment's construction permit and success!!! we are now in the first phase of construction. I dreamed to have a 6 doors apartment ever since I got a job in nowhere land. Finally, god give me this blessings and I am so thankful!! I hope this is the brand new start for me here in Philippines.

I know it would help M a lot. We expecting now a monthly income aside from his salary. After this my next project is my mom's house to renovate. I need to give K her own world or room since she's turning 9 yrs old this October. I know I can do all these project... so help me God.

The Sad me :(

I resigned from work in 2 days noticed.. I experienced blood spotting so I was scared and decided to go home immediately. The management fully support my decision though, it will kinda hard for them to replace me within 2 days so I trained one of my employee to temporarily replace me while the management looking for some more deserving employee. Bid good bye was the hard part I shed a lot of tears especially when the management personally came to the office to congratulate me in mt pregnancy and 2nd to convinced me to come back after giving birth. I was so touch that management really appreciate my job. Conrad my site manager who really cant release me that time and suggested to apply for emergency indefinite leave instead of resignation. Millie Pavia, the Indian Finance Supervisor emailed me a good quote... Thank you so much !

Guys, working with all of you give me sense of being more responsible, practice and open for learning and changes to enhance my craft in Construction field. Thank you for being my 2nd family in the other side of the world.

The sad me didn't stop there... my spotting still continue until I was in the Dubai International Airport. When I finally arrived NAIA terminal 1 the spotting was like I have a monthly period and then my luggage was left in Dubai. I stayed for more than an hour to verify my lost luggage and leave some info so DNATA  can send it at home. I was relieved to see M,K and nanay worriedly waiting for me... When they saw my pants soaked with blood they immediately rushed me in the Hospital. I lost the baby... I cried! i felt guilty! I cried! K and M cried! I felt more guilty! I cried! that night was the longest night I ever had...The OB gyne told me the baby was weak. I felt guilty!

Dear Baby Sandy;

Having you in my tummy in 9 weeks makes mommy realize how important Ate K and Daddy M and YOU in my life. I really felt guilty for losing you. I love you so much that I choose you over my career becos I know I'll be more happier to be with the family. But I know there's a reason why God didn't permitted you to come out. Forgive me baby if mommy's care was not enough to carry you throughout the whole thing. I know you are now my ANGEL SANDY please help mommy to recover with my guilt and always there to guide ate K.
I love you so much that I will cherish our 9 weeks together.

Right now, I struggling with myself.. what I really wanted aside from being a mom and wife. Hope before I lose my sanity I find something to keep my worth.

Love,

The sad me

I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So happy :) and proud to be a mom again!!!

The Who?!...Me?!

For the past few weeks after my short lived vacation, I forgot to set up my mind for work seriously! Every time I went home 1 week before my flight I talked to myself giving some sort of motivation why I need to go back abroad and what are the plans. But this time no motivation was made. Just went to NAIA airport show my VISA and passport and Viola, here I am now in the land of nowhere.

The truth is now.. I don’t know if I still love my job. My career is has no direction as of this time. The only thing I know I enjoyed my 22 days vacation and I wanted to go back. But I wanted to go back with secured financial status.

Maybe I wanted to go back because first to support M to his job. He needs a supportive present physically wife and K to give her more motivation in school.  Or I just miss the home foot spa bonding with Nanay and K. We love it!  

OR maybe, I need to stop whining to myself and get off my ass in this black, soft swivel chair and work outside! Do I tell you that it is soooo freaking cold here… gosh! The windshields of our vehicles are now literally covered by ice.

Random Thoughts

Mixed feelings in these past few days. Emptied mind. Floating. in short WALA AKONG NAIISIP!! I need an inspiration to move!!!!!!!!!!

A Blast 22 Days Vacation in P.I. Part 2

Next stopped was diving in Mabini, Batangas with M’s college friends and their respective families, a small reunion that packed of fun filled 2 days  wives chatting and catching up. Our K brats’ children enjoyed the snorkeling and swimming. The buffet was so delish and cheap. We only charged 3,000 pesos for 2 days and 1 night. And most important in this event was the reunion of our boys. We know how much they wanted to unleash their being them just liked who they are in the Academy before.  They don’t even bother themselves to ask the wife if we wanted to join them in diving… well, maybe they knew we only turn down the invitation harhar! We rather stay out of the sun and just sit and sip batangas barako puro coffee under the huge tree while checking the kids snorkeling.

The rest of my vacation was simply at home savoring the mommy’s duty.  Making sure all the needs of my M and K are well prepared. The important meals (breakfast and dinner) are being in good taste. No fancy fine dining dinner outside instead always prepared them a hearty and clean plate meal. Love being a mom even though it lasted only 22 days.

Hay… now back to reality.

A Blast 22 Days Vacation in P.I. Part 1

I got home after Christmas day due to unavailable flight to P.I. But though, I missed the actual Christmas day it never down my spirit. I spent my Christmas in Dubai Airport shopping and making plans how do I spend my 22 days. How do I squeeze out my short vacation with families and friends?

My Christmas though I am alone was a memorable. As I fall in line for my boarding pass the Filipina Ground Stewardess greeted me and with her sweetest smile. She added points to my silver Skyward card. As I received my boarding pass, it has an invitation to Emirates Lounge and spends the night over there for my convenient. My Skyward Mileage   points are still insufficient to upgrade my bookings from Economy to Business Class. I waited for almost 16 hours for my flight (paying $260.00 for a Dubai Visa for quick tour is not reasonable I think) “I shop till I drop” in Dubai Airport my whole $1,000 had only $4.00 change. I bought M Hugo Boss Silver perfume, my SIL’s Tommy perfume and Nike Sporting clothes and to K, my mom, MIL and nieces are gold accessories. My feet and back was really hurt when I sat and lied down to catches some sleep before my flight. I waited to call my zone number in boarding area finally, when I handed my boarding pass to Ground Stewardess she change it to BUSINESS CLASS!! Wow! Isn’t a good deal and Christmas gift!!  All the pain was paid off when I sat and stretch my feet. I love overflowing champagne and my eyes were literally drooled to different cheeses, breads and even chocolates. The serving of food was way different from Economy Class lots of varieties and how do they serve it. They serve it with class I may say. It took me an hour to finish my whole meal from the appetizer to dessert. My experienced was really a good Christmas gift. Love you Emirates Airlines and Skyward Mileage Card and of course to my dearest savior Jesus Christ and Mother Mary I know you are the mastermind of this unforgettable and fantastic experienced.

My blast vacation started there in Emirates Airlines followed by nonstop road trip with families and friends. I just rested for 1 day and we travelled to Baguio City to attend foster sister’s wedding in Camp John Hay. I got this opportunity to bring my family side with me. I had a reservation Apartelle Suite in Supreme Hotel. We spend our first day in Burnham Park and eat lunch at Solibao Resto. My mom loves the food and the ambiance. (A little Trivia, Solibao Resto was the first dinner date with M in Baguio City).  M, K and I attended the wedding while my sisters, nieces and Mom went to Grotto and other park. Our 2^nd day we went to PMA, Mines View and Cathedral.

My next road trip was in Olongapo City, M’s hometown we spent the New Year holiday with my in laws. In between family gatherings I find time to meet M’s friends and invited us to have tour in Zoobic Safari for free. I had a grand time with M and K feeding animals, watching the animal parade and cultural show.

Bye 2010... Hello 2011

I know no one read this blog and doesn't care if I didn't update for a month... Well, to delight myself I blog my thoughts so I have something to read on and a reminder for myself to all mis and great adventured.

2010 - is a good year for me career wise. But failed to my family life, it's now 3 years working abroad it means 3 years absent for a being a mom and wife. Though, M understand why i know in his silent thoughts he protested. Dont get me wrong, M can provide everything but I am not contented I wanted something for my own. K as a daughter really excelled she's doesnt let me feel the guilt intentionally. Just thankful for the wonders of science and they invented the VIOP phone and Instant Messaging it really makes my burden and guilt lighter. 
I started my diet thing and proudly to say I lost 10 pounds and gained 20 pounds when I got home last christmas hehehehe! no regrets for the additional pounds it only remind me how happy I am with the family.

For 2011 I hope for more family blessings and time. More kiss and hugs from my family. More loving moments to me and M.

Spell Happiness

Spell Happiness....... T-H-E  S-A-N-D-Y-S!!!!! soo excited to see them!!

Lazy me...

Lazzzzzzzzzzzy Sunday….. I over slept! Don’t know why but Am so dead tired I wanted to go home refresh and need my family’s hug! In this winter time… I want a piping hot Sopas (chicken noodles soup) or goto (chicken rice soup), a nice chat or bonding time to M and K. Have a movie marathon with them or hang out in McDo.  I miss home!!

It’s freaking cold here! I am wearing 3 layers, my shirt, regular jacket and outerwear jacket and still feel cold.   

Confirmed!!!!!!

We got 3 months extension! sigh.... but okay I am still happy with it! I'll be home for good soon and i'll be officially bummer too!!

God bless us in this new journey.

Still a blessing

Though recession is now spreading out!! Gosh para syang cancer ha mabilis kumalat!!!  Old timer employees are ready for this since we saved some already from the previous company. Before we signed the contract last year it was already a “hear say”. Even the employee who’s getting less than us received the new offer letter with really duper low offer and please they are the hard worker to the extent round the clock work in the computer.

The “Super Curb Project” downsizing the US Govt budget but encouraging the employees to work very substandard. If you are the employees are you going to work 12 hours and make overtime for free if you feel that it doesn’t compensate? I doubt it!

But it is a blessing… gaining experienced to work in an international company with multi cultural environment. Develop your confidence towards work and people around you. Just think that this is our stepping stone. I still am thankful in this company to let us save for at least in 15 months and meet the other half of the world.

I am so Blessed!!

Feel right… feel blessed and I love it! Only thanking for the blessings uttered in my heart.  Pressure and problem keep on coming but I don’t know it doesn’t bother me at all. I’ll going to be a bum sooner, no more imported clothes and accessories for me and K, no more dreaming of travel abroad for the mean time, no more excess allowances and I need to tight my budget. I have to think of something at least to help M financially. But honestly, doesn’t bother me at all and for no reason at all I’m happy! I’m really praying hard this feeling will stay forever.

I was a church choir member before when I was in my teen years and I missed singing halleluiah and proclaim to the world how great our Lord Jesus Christ. How wonderful and purity our Mother Mary and how great all the angels in heaven.

Feel love… to my M, K and nanay so much! Hope God always keeps us safe and healthy.

For this coming Christmas I wish my families (Sandys and Juans) have a wonderful life ahead of them. May our good and loving God will continue to bless us forever and ever.

For all the people around me;

May the weary hearts will shine through and see God’s path of comfort.

May the feeling of resentments soon be replace by great acceptance and forgiveness.

May you see the reason for all your questions and burdens and be light up for God will never give us anything that we can’t get through.

Merry Christmas everyone!!

My K

Miss you K!!

This is her feet… after the foot spa and pedicure. My friend Dawn Smith sent her cute nail sticker for her 7th birthday last year... cute isn't?! Love it!!

This blog is about her… she got merit award for being outstanding student in SSAM. The school only gives 2 merits every school year.

I was upset when I found out that she got less 90 in her report card in the first grading it only means her chance for that merit will be less also. I made an agreement to her if she could get higher grades on 2^nd quarter I’ll buy her whatever she want… I know I am a bad mommy bribing her to get what I want but tell me, who among the mommies in this world don’t want her child/children be on top in the class???? I pressured her since I know she want something or other way around? Well, we both agreed that I’ll buy her 6 wheelers bag which is 3,000 pesos up to 5,000 depending on the brand name (actually I compromised M’s xmas bonus…hehehe!). The quest is on until the 2^nd grading report card came yesterday. She was so static to tell me that she made it!!!!! WE GOT THE MERIT!! Yehey!! I am the happiest mommy in the whole wide world aside from that she told me something I think I was robbed by my own K. The supporter (tutor, nanay, M and teacher) and I asked her to get 90 or 91 to all her subjects. To my surprised, she got 94 so I owe her 3 points. Gosh! She asked me to buy pink netbook and forget about the 6 wheelers since she can get that on the next school year… what the H! So tell me now? My bribing went well or she tricked me so she can get what she really wanted boo! Anyhow, I asked my SIL to buy me in the US or I’ll buy her on line… do I have any choice?

                        This is what she want .             

                             

My K is a consistent honor student from Prep up to present. She was accelerated from Nursery to Kinder in UP PUSO due to her great ability to identify shapes, colors, numbers and letters.

Maybe we spoiled her like this but with limitation. She has to earn what she wants. We let her to decide whatever club she wants to join. We never have a baby talk in our house; we treat her as a young adult.

 Miss you K so much! Mommy and daddy are so proud of you!!