Another Boredom

It's been 1 week since nnay left us... wait!!! d sya lumayas she just need to fix something in my brother's house. Hubby doesnt know bout it kc d naman sya tumatawag eh kung d nman ako mag text d naman sya mangungumusta. Siguro kampante lang sya na may kasama kme lagi ng daughter nya sa house. And beside I dont want him to feel guilty and umuwi every night super pagod naman yun.
I write this because I feel bored as in bored tlga. No one to talk to kungdi ang garden, laptop and tv. K usually home by 6pm nag 7-11 store na lang kme for dinner since she loves the hotdog sandwich and juices.
The reason is I'm pissed! bakit ba I need to compete with his job? why do I feel that family is just 2nd priority.. well, I keep my head cool if he can't go home by week days because of that stupid sportfest and boodle fight and so fine less intindihin sa breakfast. But it make sense naman kung mag alala ka d ba lalo na ngayon. D ko alam kung pano sya nakatulog na lam nya aso lang kasama namin sa house. Well, kunsensya na yun mahirap mag remind masyado na kaming matatanda for that. Having a family is having a irresponsibility that you should mostly need to consider before anything else.

Thankful Me

Soo happy for the blessings... God really perfect he knows when you are ready to receive another blessings and we love it and forever be thankful.

I am thankful for having a a wonderful family... my nanay who never give up on me, my tatay who challenge me to grow as he passed away 6 yrs ago I never feel alone and incomplete cause I know you are just beside me and still challenging my capacity to grow as a person. My siblings who never stop teasing and supporting in all my endeavor.
 I am thankful for a having a family of my own... M, my bestfriend, enemy, supporter, partner and hubby. K, the daughter I really wanted, my pride and joy.
I am thankful for the business I am into right now. and looking for another one since I do have Idle time.
I am thankful for the home God's built for my family.
lastly, I am thankful for another long awaited blessing... a new Sandy! Hope God will lead, guide and bless me in my new journey of motherhood.

Thank you Lord for all of these... i know konti pa toh sa sobrang dami ng blessings and miracles I recieved in my entire life.  I just want to thank you and glorified your mighty through the intercession of Mother Mary and all the saints in heaven. Amen.

To Saint Gerarld, St. Clare and St. Francis of Assisi  and St. Gabriel. Please pray for me and  baby Sandy. Amen!

Love.. Love.. Love..

Valentine's day was in every corner last Tuesday, everyone was in love in that day... hoarding of flowers and chocolates, have a dinner reservation and ... kakaingit! sana ako rin. Halos lahat ata ng girls pinkish ang cheek. Ang hahaba ng hair!!

Well, do I sound bitter?.. d naman d ba hehehehe!! for me, valentine's day is just like an ordinary day. Yeah, we celebrate thru text and calls for over 11 years. Ganun cguro sabi nga ni  M... bayan muna please. Minsan wla ng kilig factor kaya nakakainggit cla... savor the moment guys!

M greeted me thru text exactly 12mn ( kitams!) ugali nya na mag greet ng 12mn in our birthdays, anniversaries and valentine's day and I find it so cute and appreciate the effort but no expectation or whatsover. Since busy ang lolo sa work.  So sleep na drama ng lola nyo and K  tapos na valentine wla ng flower vendor sa kalsada and malamang pauwi na mga nag date when my cel ring. He was outside the gate.. umuwi!! but without fancy flowers instead isang balot na white rabbit (yung  kinakain ang balat), OTAP and gutom na tummy. So niyaya nya kong kumain sa labas but since 10:30 pm san pa kya pedeng mag dinner. We decided  to look for some fastfood na open pa and Thanks God  ang KFC 24 hours thou ang haba ng pila mukhang d ako nag iisang humahabol sa valentine's treat. M look at me kc halos lahat ng tao may hawak na flowers, balloons and chocs. I know na guilty sya kc it's our chance to celebrate Valentine together. I pat him on his back and biniro ko sya " lam ko gusto mo kong ibili kaso wla na khit plastic na flowers ubos na next time ka na lang bumawi honey" We take out our orders and feast in our home with K.

M is not a romantic type of person big effort ang gumawa ng letters for him kya super bilang ang love letters nya. But yung effort na umuwi sya to think na 24 hrs syang gising no breakfast and lunch and the tight sched.... super appreciate! for me love is in the air.

Love you so much sir! pasok pa rin tyo sa bilang ng nag celebrate ng Valentine's day!!

Unplanned Date

The Sandys attended a birthdy party last saturday in Shakey's Marcos Hway. 2 of my college closest friend were there with their respective family. We didnt chat that long our grown up kids wanted to go somewhere else. We supposed to buy some cologne in Etude House boutique in SM Masinag, my feeling korean daughter wanted to buy a doll shape cologne just like in the Korean Mag. But the parking area are all full so I suggest to dine at Niagra Hills in Antipolo to show K where her Dad and Mom usually go for a date before.

  See! I fall in love with M all over again because of this view.

 K was really amazed in the view. She keep on asking her dad where are those light came from. She's just like me before when M and I dined here. Our daddy patiently guiding my daughter to all her question.While they're busy I ordered my favorite Pork Sisig, coffee and juice for us. I like the Pork sisig in Niagra Hiils the sweet,salty spicy and with a raw egg on the top sisig is a divine! or just being bias since this is the place where I tasted my first love affair with Sisig and never stop since then.... Yan na ata pamantayan ko sa Sisig. Even K loves it and ordered some rice hehehehe!! The scenery and food keep us more closer as a family. I love the feeling!!

Go sweat!!

Finding my old " physically me" is really hard... soo hard!! most of the time people think I have at least 2 kids because of my weight. I gained for over 10 years 50 lbs and gaining more I think. My hubby give up teasing me to hit the gym thou I tried God knows I really tried but maybe my disciplined and determination are not enough. But since last week I join community aerobics classes... It's really cool for only 30 pesos per session you can have a 1 hour aerobics session from the typical floor exercise to taebo, street and belly dancing. Hubby is so supportive that he actually drop me there or he just want to make sure that I attend the aerobics class. I just hope I can see the result as fast as summer hit me. Lovely day!!

Blessings.. Indeed!

Done with the apartment and all my units are now full. I hope my tenants will take care the units. So far no complaints receive yet.. kuddos to my foreman!! My mom and Aunts forced me to had the house warming last November since 3 units are already occupied so I keep it a secret or "bulungan blessings" to my friends and only close families came because I'm not really prepared physically and financially. But really thankful to them for the support and will power that I can make the apartment full before the 2011 end and I did! Thank you God for coming to my apartment and blessed each unit, each rooms and corner. Hope that everyone dwelling in here will live happily and peaceful through your love and support.

God bless everyone!!

How many times do I need to say " I'll update my blog".

Soo busy for the past months i don't know until when this project done. I need to be deeply involve in the finishing stage of my apartment. I asked my worker to paint the house super light blue in the bed room. cream beige in the kitchen cabinet. yellowish light cream in the living and dining. dark chocolate for the base board and terrace and lastly waterproof mud o' pie for the firewall. I'll post some picture when it's ready but right now too messy.

The other reason why I cant blog I am a victim of a swindler!!!!!! god help us. The contractor was recommended by one of my worker to do the sliding windows for 40,000 pesos. Right after we signed the contract I paid him 25,000 so he can able to buy materials but after so many weeks I received only false promises until the storm Pedring came. The water went through inside the room because the window still wide open so what happened the wooden wall swollen and not in good shape so I need to get a new contractor for the window and the carpenter need to fix the wall again . Oh!!! really hate those people!

I asked the assistance of the barangay municipal to get my money back from that contractor and give him lesson. So please guys! a beware of this kind of people make sure he's legitimate contractor check if he has a shop and record in his barangay so my experience wont happen to you.

Swiss Roll (Jelly Roll) with Butter Icing

My first day in baking and pastry class was a blast. Chef Cora assigned every group to bring ingredients for Swiss roll. And here it goes.

Day 1
Swiss Roll / Jelly Roll (Chiffon Cake)
Tray 9x13 Swiss Roll 10x3 round
Cake
1 ½ c cake flour
½ c sugar
1 Tbsp baking powder
6 pcs eggyolk
1/3 c oil
½ c water
½ Tsp vanilla

1) Procedure:
Sift and combined all the dry ingredients in a bowl
Beat the egg yolk and mix the entire liquid ingredient. While mixing with the hand whisk put little by little of dry mixture in the liquid mixture until make it smooth.

Pre heated the oven in 350F. Prepare the greased pan.


*7 pcs egg white * use electric mixer beat egg white until fluffy and foamy combine
*¼ c sugar sugar little by little. Mix the cream of tartar on the beaten egg white.
*½ tsp cream of tartar

2) Procedure:

Cut and fold procedure. Mix the egg white mixture using spatula put some flour smooth mixture little by little doing the cut and fold procedure.

Bake the mixture for 25 mins for 9x13 or 45 mins in 9x3 until done.



Butter Icing

1 c sugar
1 c evaporated milk

Mix until sugar dissolves.

1 bar butter – cream butter then adds the milk mixture.

Late Bloomer and Late Post

So excited... god is really good! officially enrolled now in Baking and Pastry class. I'll post my first recipe... promise!!! Thank you lord for all the blessings!

Korean Hype Me

So the Koreanovela fever is now attacking me... I'm done watching Baker King, My GF is a Gumiho(fox) and Playful Kiss with my 8 yrs old daughter K. She's the one who really hooked up with these cute God's creature. I just wondering why the Korean can make a telenovelas that really get your attention and touched your heart and why do I find our own telenovenas boring. I love our actors but maybe it is in the story. The longer and complicated the stories, they more look boring and dull. But make it shorter the stories, the audience literally stop breathing in every scene; they really hold their breath and affected.
Right now, I am looking forward for more Korean Telenovelas marathon with K!!! Aja!

Aha! a sweet me?

hubby complained that I'm not longer a malambing to him. Still feel guilty as charged I dont know how to make up with him. Honestly, we are really liked a newlywed tho got married last 2006 and been together for almost 11 years now but still.... hay! M work away from the family most of the time plus the fact that I worked abroad also... the should be intimacy of being hubby and wifey are really less even though we tried to keep in touch and constantly updating ourselves no amount of talks the physical presences of each other d ata totoo ang "absence makes the heart founder". But dont get me wrong I LOVE MY M! he's my world and air. Maybe just need to pay attention more to him.
So to get a fresh start we celebrate Father' day at Golden Leaf Spa and truly enjoyed every seconds of soothing massage and the amenities such as Sauna and Steam bath, Jacuzzi and the snacks. We do planned to dine at Hapchan we like the noodles and dumplings but since we left the Spa sooo late (11pm) we end up at Vivian Tapsihan at Bulalohan along Tuazon Ave. We ordered Tapsilog, Sizzling Sisig and plain rice. No extra special in their food it's a so-so food masarap pa luto ni nanay Norma ( M's grandmother who owned a resto in Olongapo City.)We got up the next day around 10am! as in the massage gave us a good night sleep then.
I prepared M fried egg, hotdog and instant pancit canton for breakfast since we're late for pandesal. The owner even commented to M as "sir, tanghali na po wla ng nagbebenta ng pandesal".
M's tampo truly amazed me all the time. Naaalala ko na hey! I have a life and partner to enjoy for d puro stress and work lang.
M,
I know masama na loob mo but just to understand your wife. Still adjusting for so many things. I wanted to learn more from K, to our new project, to myself as an official bum and to you. From a high earner and independent person to nothing but a simple plain housewife. I thought it is simple as the word "plain" housewife but now the poor me sink in in my mind. Im a strong person I know in time I overcome my building up insecurities and fears and you'll see the old fighter in me. I love you so much! I truly do.

Bouncing Back

After the depressing miscarriage last February...Im back with confidence. I started my 6 doors apartment project last May 4. The first few weeks was really a financial draining phased. It's good that I tracking down all my expenses down to last centavo so I would be able to see the cost of my project and if it is still in my budget. I got 12 men to work for me I personally supervise the project tho, doesn't have educational background regarding construction only the knowledge and skills I learned from my previous job. Good to know that still I am a sales and marketing person... got a good deal in all construction materials I literally walked from Mayamot to Antipolo area just to canvass and check the durability of each materials. I love the new experience that keeps me busy like a bee for now..

Hectic Me

Been busy for the past 2 months complying with apartment's construction permit and success!!! we are now in the first phase of construction. I dreamed to have a 6 doors apartment ever since I got a job in nowhere land. Finally, god give me this blessings and I am so thankful!! I hope this is the brand new start for me here in Philippines.

I know it would help M a lot. We expecting now a monthly income aside from his salary. After this my next project is my mom's house to renovate. I need to give K her own world or room since she's turning 9 yrs old this October. I know I can do all these project... so help me God.

The Sad me :(

I resigned from work in 2 days noticed.. I experienced blood spotting so I was scared and decided to go home immediately. The management fully support my decision though, it will kinda hard for them to replace me within 2 days so I trained one of my employee to temporarily replace me while the management looking for some more deserving employee. Bid good bye was the hard part I shed a lot of tears especially when the management personally came to the office to congratulate me in mt pregnancy and 2nd to convinced me to come back after giving birth. I was so touch that management really appreciate my job. Conrad my site manager who really cant release me that time and suggested to apply for emergency indefinite leave instead of resignation. Millie Pavia, the Indian Finance Supervisor emailed me a good quote... Thank you so much !

Guys, working with all of you give me sense of being more responsible, practice and open for learning and changes to enhance my craft in Construction field. Thank you for being my 2nd family in the other side of the world.

The sad me didn't stop there... my spotting still continue until I was in the Dubai International Airport. When I finally arrived NAIA terminal 1 the spotting was like I have a monthly period and then my luggage was left in Dubai. I stayed for more than an hour to verify my lost luggage and leave some info so DNATA  can send it at home. I was relieved to see M,K and nanay worriedly waiting for me... When they saw my pants soaked with blood they immediately rushed me in the Hospital. I lost the baby... I cried! i felt guilty! I cried! K and M cried! I felt more guilty! I cried! that night was the longest night I ever had...The OB gyne told me the baby was weak. I felt guilty!

Dear Baby Sandy;

Having you in my tummy in 9 weeks makes mommy realize how important Ate K and Daddy M and YOU in my life. I really felt guilty for losing you. I love you so much that I choose you over my career becos I know I'll be more happier to be with the family. But I know there's a reason why God didn't permitted you to come out. Forgive me baby if mommy's care was not enough to carry you throughout the whole thing. I know you are now my ANGEL SANDY please help mommy to recover with my guilt and always there to guide ate K.
I love you so much that I will cherish our 9 weeks together.

Right now, I struggling with myself.. what I really wanted aside from being a mom and wife. Hope before I lose my sanity I find something to keep my worth.

Love,

The sad me

Salty meal

For the first time It wasn't bland but real salty!!!!!! chicken with tomato sauce, salty chow mein noodles, blanched brocolli, raisins cookies, banana and banana juice. I ate it though salty becos I need to eat.

Still getting some spot please pray for me and baby sandy...

Feeling Blue? Try some Tim Hortons Donuts

This is my first craving... Tim Hortons donut and sooo delish!! The chocolates that coated in the donut really tasted milk choco not cocoa. The crew bought me 2 boxes for 10 dlrs reallly worth it! I can't drink coffe so I partner it with bottled water.
Feel down today.... mood swing?.. hays....

Meal meal

The meal is pretty good today tho still bland... Beef pie, beef and brocolli stir fry, cucumber and carrot stick and grapes. The food aren't great taste as usual.. still missing philippines local foods. Maybe it because of my hormonal changes that affect my appetite. Kind of low/sad today I had some blood spot this morning and kinda scared for baby sandy and myself.

Please whoever read this please pray for me and baby sandy or Papa god please help me with my pregnancy please bless us. I never ask for anything but only for my baby to be safe and healthy. Amen.

My Mexican Chilli con Carne

Basicallty my meal today: Rice topped with mexican chilli con carne, chicken nuggets, chicken and veggie stew, chicken with white sauce. I finished my whole chilli con carne, 3 nuggets, and tasted the chicken stew.. that's it! the verdict everything was bland!!!!!!!!! I ate the apple pie sugar crust becos the mango sponge doesn't taste mango or just to make even close. hayzzzz... I want a real food!! miss you sinigang, kilawin, dinuguan and torta! 

Guilty Pleasure

Yeah! this is my guilty pleasure instead of pigging out at TGIF I bought Oakley Shades... Love it!!  

Bland diet

I ate this meal yesterday... beef and veggies stir fry, calamari, spanish torta and chicken finger ( cant remember the name of this chicken but looks like chicken finger).